People say it takes a village to raise a child. While that may be true it also takes a village to take care of me while I'm pregnant! Both pregnancies have been polar opposites but equally challenging in different ways and I don't know how I would do it without help. I have amazing people in my life who have bent over backwards for me! My hubs, my parents, the in-laws, friends.. So many people have helped us out.
I've been running on fumes for a while now. I've got nothing left in my tank to deal with any more shit that pops up. Last night, I had blurry vision in one eye. I just thought I had something in my eye so I went to look in the mirror and as it turns out, my one eye was totally dilated! I started to assume I was just going to die! As it turns out, it was due to the nausea patch I was wearing. (Thank you mom, for finding that out!) After I calmed down, I just melted into a big pile of defeat on the couch. Garrett came home and brought me a cupcake so I could eat my feelings.
I'm also stopping the progesterone oil shot because the reaction I had this week was really bad. My entire buttcheek for swollen. When I sit down, it feels like I'm sitting on a big hard lump of some kind. Plus it was really sore, the skin was hot and red. So I called my OB for the millionth time and she said to stop the shots.
I just don't have much left in the tank. I have enough to get through the next 10 weeks, with help...but then I need to refuel and put my energy towards other things. My body is tired. My muscles are weak. I'm emotionally worn out from the last 8 years. There is a little bittersweetness to closing this chapter of my life, but there will also be a great sigh of relief. Bring on some new challenges.
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