So I came to realize something today. And I hope this doesn't sound bad but I'm sick of infertility. It's an asshole that has stolen so much from me and continues to steal moments from me. My life has been nothing but infertility treatments and hoping and praying and wishing since 2007. Now that I have Mason and one on the way, I'm just sick of it! I'm sick of it being in the foreground of my life!
I've always been on the front lines on infertility awareness. But I'm realizing that I'm tired! I will always be an advocate. Always. And always back my girls and be there for them. But maybe it's time to let someone else take the reigns for a while so I can figure out how to live my life without guilt. I should be able to post pictures of my kid(s) without constantly feeling like I'm ruining someone's day. Or walk in the park with my kid and not worry (so much) that I'm hurting someone who wants so badly what I have. I don't know that it will ever go away completely, but it's keeping me from fully enjoying a time in my life that goes by way too fast. So I think it may be time to step back! Just for a bit. My babies will only be babies a short while! I need to unload the guilt. It's time. I've earned it.
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