Career?

I've been doing some deep soul searching about my future.  After doing the mom thing for 8.5 months and realizing how much work it is to try and maintain my creative profession as a tattoo artist, I've come to the conclusion that some decisions need to be made.

When I don't tattoo for a while, I definitely miss it.  When I don't paint for a while, I feel like I'm missing a part of myself. In the last few months, I've found that I just don't have the time to be a mom and tattoo and paint and get my workout in.  I have not painted since December and it's killing me. But I've used every ounce of free time on tattooing and workouts.

Doing the mom thing isn't even in question here.  I've wanted to be a mom...and a stay at home one,  for a long time.  This is where I want to be.  Working out is also something that's not up for debate.  I need to be in shape for a million reasons.

So that just leaves painting and tattooing.  The big thing that is making this decision so difficult is I feel like I would be letting so many people down!  I know i have to make the decision for myself...and really, I already know the answer.  But I don't want to admit it.

I've said it before, painting is my passion.  With 2 kids under 2, I am going to be busy for a while.  I do think I will go back to it down the road.  But as of right now, it's going to be too much.  I'm already busy enough with one kid!!

We won't have very much money...but enough to be comfortable and with me staying home with babies, we can save on childcare.  And I won't miss anything in these precious first few years!  So  thankful for that.  I just don't want to break the news to the rest of the world...