Still sick, but stable...

I seriously love my OB. She called me personally today to check on me. Of course, I missed her call but she left a super sweet message for me.

My status right now is "Meh." Last night, I got my hopes up because I felt pretty good. I had this weird feeling that I remembered vaguely to be hunger. I sat out in the living room with my family until it was time for bed.  Woke up feeling pretty ok too. Then, bam. Yucky again. Although not terrible but enough to render me useless for the day.

Siiiigggghhhhh...

I cried a lot today.  I want my life back.  I just keep telling myself, this won't last forever.  In fact, that's what I meditate over and over in my head. Sometimes, I throw in an "I can do this" when I'm feeling especially weak.  It really does seem to help but I just hope I don't have to continue this the whole pregnancy.

It's funny because when I first found out that I was pregnant, my worries were nothing about this. Yeah, I had nausea Last Time but nothing like this.  I didn't have to go in to get an IV for fluids. And I've had to do that twice.  I had 2 veins collapse while they were doing the IV because I was do dehydrated.  I've hardly had time to think about the other stuff.  ya know...that whole incompetent cervix thing.

I made it into my OB appointment last week finally.  luckily, my cervix is holding up for the time being. I can't imagine trying to deal with that on top of this nausea.  I would just tell them to knock me out, throw a feeding tube in and wake me when my baby is here. Ugh.

I have a follow-up appointment next week because my OB was pretty concerned.  So we'll see how I am next week. They are also going to show G how to do my intramuscular progesterone shots so I don't have to do office visits every week.  Good thing needles don't make G squirm because they are pretty big.

Overall, I am doing better than the last couple weeks.  But it's still only when I'm laying down. If I get up too much, I feel sick again. I'm on a regimen of Phenergan suppositories every 6 hours, alternating with Zofran. I take unisom at night and a half tab in the morning and I'll be adding B6 3 times a day to see if that helps.  Oh and I will be adding prilosec as well. If that still doesn't work, we'll try something else. At least my OB is serious about helping me!!!  She could see the misery on my face.  Not to mention, I was intermittently sobbing while talking to her.

The good news is that baby looks good and my cervix is still intact. Our anatomy scan is in early June so we can relax a bit more after that.  I do know this will be worth it in the end.  But that doesn't make it any easier at the moment.  I definitely have a new appreciation for people who have to live with chronic nausea. It's so debilitating.

We know the gender of our baby, too.  I'm hoping and praying I will feel better so we can still do a mini gender reveal.  This is, indeed, our last baby.  And I got screwed on a lot of things last time so I truly hope we can do at least a few things on our pregnancy bucket list.