Soooo...yeeeeaaahhh.....

I'm not entirely sure who is still even following this blog..  But if you've been a faithful reader...even through my dull posts, again, you get some privileged information.  I just ask that you don't let it spill out onto FB quite yet.

I'm pregnant.

Yep. You read that right.  It took 7 years and $30,000+ to get pregnant with Mason. And now, we get pregnant through 2 different methods of birth control. Although, I may have been pregnant before I started the pill. I'm not sure how far along I am.

I took 3 different pregnancy tests, all blaring positives. My last and only period since having Mason was December 17th. But I don't have normal 28 day cycles so there is no way to pinpoint ovulation short of an ultrasound.  Of course I find all this out on a Friday afternoon...so I didn't get in for amblood test until like 4 and knew I wouldn't hear back from them until (hopefully) today.

As far as how I'm doing emotionally...aside from the utter shock, I'm thrilled, of course. Worried. Scared.  Grateful.  Did I mention I am in shock still?

I had symptoms that make sense in retrospect. But could be easily explained away.  The first was every time I blow !y nose, I have bloody boogers. I know. I know. Gross. But that happened in early pregnancy with Mason. But, the air has been soooo insanely dry here that I just didn't think anything of it.  And literally the day before infested, I was sitting in the couch telling Garrett that there is no reason I should be this tired. I was like extremely fatigued. But I do have a 7 month old so I just chocked that up to the tiredness catching up to me. And then the final thing that actually made me test was I was on birth control and never got my period.  That's never happened before, even with my crazy PCOS stuff.  I still didn't think in a million years that I was pregnant. I just wanted to rule it out before I started the next month of birth control. Needless to say, when I saw that positive pop up, I couldn't believe it.

So now, I'm just waiting for gynecology to open up today so I can call and get my results and make an appointment. I'm so scared.  I feel so unprepared. I'm supposed to be on progesterone for the first at least 10 weeks and I have no idea where I'm at.  I just want to know everything looks OK! I know worrying doesn't help anything and I'm trying not to but...I just need some piece of mind! I have been lifting heavy. Eating fish. Had no prenatal care.

OK. I need to chill out! I'll call in about an hour to get things rolling! Ahhhh!!!