Parenting Confession

The hardest part of the day isn't when Mason is being fussy. Or when he cries at 3 am.  It's not when he overflows his diaper.  It's after he falls asleep in my arms at night and then I have to put him in his crib.  I just want to cuddle him all night. I just don't understand how it is possible to love a little human SO much.

With that being said, here is my confession. And I'm hope I'm not alone in this thought, but it's hard to imagine loving someone else as much as I love little man.  I KNOW I will.  And I know it will not even be an issue.  It's just hard to wrap my head around because my heart feels so full.  

I do already love the new peanut so much.  So I just want to be clear about that!  Mason was very planned. Not just once. But over and over again until he happened.  I felt like I had been bonding with him before he even existed.  This baby was beyond a surprise.  So it's been kinda bazaar trying to wrap my head around it.  I worry I don't have the time to bond that I did with Mason.  I mean, I'm already almost to the 3rd trimester and I'm still adjusting to the fact that I'm pregnant. 

I hope this doesn't sound bad.  I know that I will love new baby just as much as Mason.  I do know that.  It's just crazy to think I'll have so much love for my kiddos...I just may burst!!! lol

I was reminiscing about the day M was born and I'm so looking forward to that with this new peanut.