Adjusting

I've been feeling rather disconnected recently.  Like I have no place amongst groups anymore.  And what I mean by that is before, I had an infertility group, an exercise partner/family, etc.  Now I feel like I don't belong anywhere.  It's probably a pretty normal feeling considering the circumstances but it's kind of unsettling to me. I don't really know of any mom groups where there isn't "mom wars" going on.  I sure as hell don't belong in a la leche league or any of the sorts.  My boobies aren't invited to those exclusive clubs.  My schedule does not really work for a lot of workout classes or my normal workout partner. So I work out alone. Plus, I won't be ready for the Spartan races in time so I won't be getting my trifecta with the rest of the god damn state.  

I suppose it's a good thing Mason is my world because without him and my hubs, it would be pretty lonely. 

I'm just going to keep working on my goals.  And I have a lot of them!  With over without support and/or help, I'll get there.  I'm planning on at least doing the Seattle half marathon.  I loathe running but I want to do something big before we start heading down the road of fertility treatments again.  

Plus, being a mom is very fulfilling! It may be time to move on from my life prior to Masers!  I had a lot of fun but things are just different, and that's not necessarily a bad thing! Kind of a bitter sweet, I suppose, as a lot of it were things to keep me afloat while I was treading the infertility waters. 

Now I have my little dude to occupy my time and keep me busy, my workouts that are my "me time" and my job on weekends.  Moving on isn't a bad thing, I guess!!!