Surreal

I just got done singing my son to sleep.  That is surreal to me!!!! It still just blows my mind that I have a son! Sometimes, I just stare at him with amazement!  To think that he is the one we waited all that time for. My gratitude is beyond measure.  His smile is the absolute BEST part of my day.

I was reflecting on my pregnancy today a bit.  Things could have turned out so differently. While I was pregnant, I knew it would all be worth it...but some days, I felt like I was just saying f that to make myself stick to the bed rest. Now that Mr. Mason is here, there is no doubt that it was, in fact, worth it. And I'm thankful that I listened to my body when I felt like something was wrong.  It makes me sad to think so many lose their babies due to incompetent cervix. My heart goes out to them because I just can't even imagine the pain of that.  

I am also so happy that Mason is so loved by SO many.  Even people I've never even met in real life.  He is a lucky dude!!!!  

I was also thinking today that I am so proud of myself for working so hard to get in shape again.  I don't want to be the mama who gets winded just walking across the street! I was to be right there with my kiddos, playong , riding bikes, running... All that good stuff until they are top cool for their old mama bear!  And while I get incredibly frustrated while working out, I know I'm getting stronger!  I'm back to doing some toe push ups. That was a big ego buster in the beginning because I used to rock the push ups. Going back down to knee push ups was a little tough on my confidence.  But I just have to keep reminding myself of what my body just went through. I'm just excited to be tough and fit again!  Right when I get there, that will be about the time I start looking into a frozen embryo transfer! Lol