Balance

I've spent this week sick with mastitis, thrush, a tummy bug and just plain exhaustion. My milk supply has taken a,pretty big hit as a result. I'm struggling with that fact more than I thought I would. I went from a definite 60 ounces a day to barely 50. Yes. I know that's still an oversupply. But even though I'm straggling awith the loss, I'm not sure I want to try to get it back. I'm so tired. I've pumped longer than I thought I would be able to. And I have ato least 3 months of frozen milk in my stash. That's way more than I thought I could save up.

Bottom line is I'm so damn tired. This week has been a huge eye opener for me.  My body basically told me I need to do something different because what I'm doing isn't working. A lot of times, I end my day with trying to squeeze in last minute things. I always feel like I could have done more. But I need to remind myself that I've done enough. At the end of the day, my kids are fed and happy.

Of course that's easier said than done but we've already made a few changes. I've dropped the middle of the night pump. We've just been bringing Malc I told bed with us and we're transitioning him into the cosleeper. It's helping a bit.

I'm just so tired. My body is tired. My husband is tired. This is a rough time right now. It'll get better. But damn, it's hard to find a little balance right now.