A New Home!!!

Well. Here it is.  My new home.  Nothing fancy but somewhere I can start anew!  Baby-making is no longer my goal.  It's time for new goals.

First, I want to be a good mother. Not a perfect one because we all know those don't exist.  But I want my boy to be raised happy and healthy.  I want him to know he is so incredibly loved!  But I also want him to be raised with manners. I have lots of dreams for him and the main one being for him to realize and a strive for his own dreams.  Motherhood has been something I've dreamt of forever.  I literally bought a decoration for Mason's room while I was still in high school!  I obviously wasn't ready to have kids back then but I knew I wanted them someday.  And now that the time is here, I'll be using this blog to write about all the ups and downs that lie ahead!  All the milestones and memories!

Second, I will be closely documenting my fitness and my journey back to being strong!  I want to be strong for my family. And for myself.  I function so much better all around when I work out and eat well so I'm excited to get back to that lifestyle.  G will be joining me as well.  We won't work out together since someone needs to be watching little man, but we will be cheering each other on and helping each other make good decisions!  The c section and mostly the bedrest left me insanely weak so it will be a little bit of a challenge...though not as much as the first time around.  Mostly, I think it will be mentally challenging. Knowing where I was before and now where I have to start...it hurts my pride a bit.  But I'll get there again! Probably a lot quicker than I think!

And, third, I will be writing about just the odds and ends of life.  I'm sure the majority of what I write about will revolve around Mason, Garrett, or fitness...but I want to keep this blog open to write about anything else that pops up. I kept my last blog pretty specific to infertility... And I felt limited in what I wrote about.  Even when I did meander away from the topic, I would feel stifled and like I was breaking some sort of unwritten rule.  I should have started a new one beginning with pregnancy. Every time I felt an emotion other than pure joy, I felt guilty. I didn't want my infertile audience to read it and feel hurt or that I didn't appreciate what I had.  So I constantly felt the need to justify my feelings. So I want to keep it open here. Open and honest.

That's about it for now.  I'll be doing a real post soon!  Probably a Mason update!  Little man will be a month old tomorrow...so I think that deserves a post!