As I get closer to having this baby, there have been some suggestions and inquiries why not just wait and try to go all the way to 40+ weeks. I'd like to clear that up really quick.
I don't want to bleed out.
Ok...so I know that's not guaranteed to happen. But it is not something I'm willing to risk. And I'm sure I'd you were to ask my hubby, my mom and dad, my best friends, I think they would agree. Yes. I acknowledge that all 40 weeks are important and it's best to go all the way to full term if possible. But it's not best if it puts me at risk. I didn't do all this work just to put myself in a dangerous situation that could have been avoided.
So....
...when they tell me it's time to cut this baby out, I am there.
The reason why I am not pushing it to 40 weeks is I had a LOT of trauma to my uterus and cervix and I only had 6 months to heal before my uterus (my poor, sad, tired uterus) had to go back to work. That's not very long to heal from a cervical tear, a uterine tear, and a cesarean. So the risk of a uterine tear is pretty up there if baby gets too big.
I'm not only going to 39 weeks because I'm uncomfortable. There are actual medical reasons why we won't risk it.
Saturday, August 15, 2015
Wednesday, August 12, 2015
29 weeks
How Far Along? 29 weeks and 4 days.
Baby This Week? Malcolm is about 15.25 inches and around 2.5 pounds. He is hitting a growth spurt and his bones are beginning to harden up more. His movements may begin to decrease a bit since his space is becoming more and more cramped...though I felt like he's just moving my organs aside so he can still move. Lol
Symptoms This Week? I'm super happy to report that nausea is still very minimal. I'm still getting a bit yucky but have been able to get by on a Zofran here or there. No more patch. No more Phenergan. The biggest symptom that popped up this week is fatigue. Omg, I get sooooo tired by about 2. I wake up with gusto. I plan a bunch of things to get done for the day and then 2 pm hits and I hit a wall. The only thing I have the energy for by that point is Mason. But I also have been sleeping soooo horribly so that doesn't help.
Cravings / Aversions? Cravings have picked up a lot this week while aversions have dropped. I actually ate steak this week. And I'm craving dairy items. String cheese, yogurt, chocolate milk...but I also read that I need to make sure to keep my calcium intake up as baby's bones are hardening so I'm not sure if the cravings are related to that or not.
Goals for This Week? Just hoping to continue to nest here and there. I probably won't get anything bug done this week but I've been working on little things.
Mason? Mason has really taken to his assisted walking this week. As in he's really starting to enjoy it. He laughs a lot when he's using his walker thingy and is getting faster and more efficient. He's also making a ton of new sounds! The most recent one is "ya ya ya ya." Lol. It's fun to watch him learning new things every day.
This isn't really part of the update but I'm thinking about it so I'm going to just put it here. I've been getting nervous about Mason adjusting to a little brother. I know it will be fine and he will ultimately love having a sibling. But Mason is at an age where we can't prepare him because we can't explain the changes. All if the sudden, there will be a little person here who has mommy and daddy's attention. I don't want him to feel replaced or that he is any less important to us. I know this is a common fear with an age gap this close fir parents and ultimately everyone gets through the adjustment phase. Some advice I've recieved is to just accept the help from the grandparents when they offer. They can give a little extra attention to Masers while we get to know Malcolm. Or they can hold Malcolm while we spend a little quality time with Mase. So I'm taking thar advice to heart and will be fully using the grandparents.
Baby This Week? Malcolm is about 15.25 inches and around 2.5 pounds. He is hitting a growth spurt and his bones are beginning to harden up more. His movements may begin to decrease a bit since his space is becoming more and more cramped...though I felt like he's just moving my organs aside so he can still move. Lol
Symptoms This Week? I'm super happy to report that nausea is still very minimal. I'm still getting a bit yucky but have been able to get by on a Zofran here or there. No more patch. No more Phenergan. The biggest symptom that popped up this week is fatigue. Omg, I get sooooo tired by about 2. I wake up with gusto. I plan a bunch of things to get done for the day and then 2 pm hits and I hit a wall. The only thing I have the energy for by that point is Mason. But I also have been sleeping soooo horribly so that doesn't help.
Cravings / Aversions? Cravings have picked up a lot this week while aversions have dropped. I actually ate steak this week. And I'm craving dairy items. String cheese, yogurt, chocolate milk...but I also read that I need to make sure to keep my calcium intake up as baby's bones are hardening so I'm not sure if the cravings are related to that or not.
Goals for This Week? Just hoping to continue to nest here and there. I probably won't get anything bug done this week but I've been working on little things.
Mason? Mason has really taken to his assisted walking this week. As in he's really starting to enjoy it. He laughs a lot when he's using his walker thingy and is getting faster and more efficient. He's also making a ton of new sounds! The most recent one is "ya ya ya ya." Lol. It's fun to watch him learning new things every day.
This isn't really part of the update but I'm thinking about it so I'm going to just put it here. I've been getting nervous about Mason adjusting to a little brother. I know it will be fine and he will ultimately love having a sibling. But Mason is at an age where we can't prepare him because we can't explain the changes. All if the sudden, there will be a little person here who has mommy and daddy's attention. I don't want him to feel replaced or that he is any less important to us. I know this is a common fear with an age gap this close fir parents and ultimately everyone gets through the adjustment phase. Some advice I've recieved is to just accept the help from the grandparents when they offer. They can give a little extra attention to Masers while we get to know Malcolm. Or they can hold Malcolm while we spend a little quality time with Mase. So I'm taking thar advice to heart and will be fully using the grandparents.
Monday, August 10, 2015
No Nausea?!?
I can't tell you how amaaaazing it feel just to have normal 3rd trimester symptoms. My nausea is very minimal right now. I have only been popping a zofran every once in a while. My symptoms right now are still not pleasant but waaaay more tolerable than 24/7 nausea. I think I feel like one can be expected to feel in the 3rd trimester. Exhausted, aching back, absolutely no patience for the general public, ravenous, massive heartburn, peeing every 5 seconds... Ya know, that kind of stuff! But it feels so good not to be nausous all the time! I just hope it stays like this.
I really feel tired, though. Not just tired but exhausted. I wish I didn't hate naps so much! I'm slowly starting to knock things off my nesting list. My mom helped my organize the boys clothes by size. I organized me and G's clothes. I'm hoping Kandy can watch Mase a little this week so me and G can start on the basement! Then my mom can come over and help me deep clean and paint down there! I figure I'll save cleaning out the trucks and installing Malcolms carseat for when the temperature isn't reaching inferno levels.
Having everyone over this last weekend makes me super excited about how close all these kids will be!!! And we are doing Christmas here this year and I cannot freaking wait!!! Sooo much fun!
I'll post my pregnancy update a little later this week. We made our appointment for our 3D ultrasound for next week so hopefully Malcolm cooperates so we can see his little face!!!
I really feel tired, though. Not just tired but exhausted. I wish I didn't hate naps so much! I'm slowly starting to knock things off my nesting list. My mom helped my organize the boys clothes by size. I organized me and G's clothes. I'm hoping Kandy can watch Mase a little this week so me and G can start on the basement! Then my mom can come over and help me deep clean and paint down there! I figure I'll save cleaning out the trucks and installing Malcolms carseat for when the temperature isn't reaching inferno levels.
Having everyone over this last weekend makes me super excited about how close all these kids will be!!! And we are doing Christmas here this year and I cannot freaking wait!!! Sooo much fun!
I'll post my pregnancy update a little later this week. We made our appointment for our 3D ultrasound for next week so hopefully Malcolm cooperates so we can see his little face!!!
Thursday, August 6, 2015
It takes a village...
People say it takes a village to raise a child. While that may be true it also takes a village to take care of me while I'm pregnant! Both pregnancies have been polar opposites but equally challenging in different ways and I don't know how I would do it without help. I have amazing people in my life who have bent over backwards for me! My hubs, my parents, the in-laws, friends.. So many people have helped us out.
I've been running on fumes for a while now. I've got nothing left in my tank to deal with any more shit that pops up. Last night, I had blurry vision in one eye. I just thought I had something in my eye so I went to look in the mirror and as it turns out, my one eye was totally dilated! I started to assume I was just going to die! As it turns out, it was due to the nausea patch I was wearing. (Thank you mom, for finding that out!) After I calmed down, I just melted into a big pile of defeat on the couch. Garrett came home and brought me a cupcake so I could eat my feelings.
I'm also stopping the progesterone oil shot because the reaction I had this week was really bad. My entire buttcheek for swollen. When I sit down, it feels like I'm sitting on a big hard lump of some kind. Plus it was really sore, the skin was hot and red. So I called my OB for the millionth time and she said to stop the shots.
I just don't have much left in the tank. I have enough to get through the next 10 weeks, with help...but then I need to refuel and put my energy towards other things. My body is tired. My muscles are weak. I'm emotionally worn out from the last 8 years. There is a little bittersweetness to closing this chapter of my life, but there will also be a great sigh of relief. Bring on some new challenges.
I've been running on fumes for a while now. I've got nothing left in my tank to deal with any more shit that pops up. Last night, I had blurry vision in one eye. I just thought I had something in my eye so I went to look in the mirror and as it turns out, my one eye was totally dilated! I started to assume I was just going to die! As it turns out, it was due to the nausea patch I was wearing. (Thank you mom, for finding that out!) After I calmed down, I just melted into a big pile of defeat on the couch. Garrett came home and brought me a cupcake so I could eat my feelings.
I'm also stopping the progesterone oil shot because the reaction I had this week was really bad. My entire buttcheek for swollen. When I sit down, it feels like I'm sitting on a big hard lump of some kind. Plus it was really sore, the skin was hot and red. So I called my OB for the millionth time and she said to stop the shots.
I just don't have much left in the tank. I have enough to get through the next 10 weeks, with help...but then I need to refuel and put my energy towards other things. My body is tired. My muscles are weak. I'm emotionally worn out from the last 8 years. There is a little bittersweetness to closing this chapter of my life, but there will also be a great sigh of relief. Bring on some new challenges.
Wednesday, August 5, 2015
Swollen buttcheek
Uuugghhhhh!!!! It's 4 am and my entire right buttcheek is swollen, hard, fevered, red and starting to bruise from my progesterone oil shot and it's so sore. I also have heartburn something fierce.
Pregnancy doesn't last forever. Pregnancy doesn't last forever. Pregnancy doesn't last forever...!
This has been my chant for much of this pregnancy. It has gotten me this far. My back is also beginning to ache, especially when I try to sleep. And Malcolm is a squirmy little turd and never stops moving!!! I don't think Mason was quite this active. Even Dr. Miser commented on it when she was trying to chase him down to get a good read on his heartbeat. It's crazy
I'm so glad we have not had to deal with preterm labor issues thus far. I cannot imagine adding that amount of stress to the mix. We didn't check my cervix yesterday but that's because I had a check while in labor and delivery and the nurse said it was tightly closed, high and no pressure on it! That's another thing I don't remember hurting so much is cervix checks. They hurt soooo bad this time. I dread having them done. I don't feel like I'm as near a trooper this time around as I was with Mason! I feel like I used up all my reserves for Masons pregnancy and I just have nothing left for this one.
In any case, our next appointment is scheduled out 3 weeks. Miser is going on vacation (I'm sure the woman could use one. She is working 24/7 it seems like.) She asked me if I feel comfortable with that, and I said yes. I keep pretty chill so I don't anticipate an issue, though now that the nausea has let up quite a bit (pray it stays that way), I'm trying to keep myself from overdoing it...which I have a tendency to do. But if I get worried about anything while she's gone, I can always go to labor and delivery.
I've been looking at new born photos on FB and Pinterest lately as a reminder of that moment you get to see that little human ball of perfection. The reason for all the chaos. And, instantly, the chaos fades into a distant memory as you look at this perfect little being that you shared your body with the last 9 months. That moment is what is holding me together because that is the moment you absolutely know 100% that it was ALL SO WORTH IT!!!!
Well I suppose I should try to sleep a bit more. I'm not sure if that's a possibility but I'm going to try. Good night, blog friends!
Pregnancy doesn't last forever. Pregnancy doesn't last forever. Pregnancy doesn't last forever...!
This has been my chant for much of this pregnancy. It has gotten me this far. My back is also beginning to ache, especially when I try to sleep. And Malcolm is a squirmy little turd and never stops moving!!! I don't think Mason was quite this active. Even Dr. Miser commented on it when she was trying to chase him down to get a good read on his heartbeat. It's crazy
I'm so glad we have not had to deal with preterm labor issues thus far. I cannot imagine adding that amount of stress to the mix. We didn't check my cervix yesterday but that's because I had a check while in labor and delivery and the nurse said it was tightly closed, high and no pressure on it! That's another thing I don't remember hurting so much is cervix checks. They hurt soooo bad this time. I dread having them done. I don't feel like I'm as near a trooper this time around as I was with Mason! I feel like I used up all my reserves for Masons pregnancy and I just have nothing left for this one.
In any case, our next appointment is scheduled out 3 weeks. Miser is going on vacation (I'm sure the woman could use one. She is working 24/7 it seems like.) She asked me if I feel comfortable with that, and I said yes. I keep pretty chill so I don't anticipate an issue, though now that the nausea has let up quite a bit (pray it stays that way), I'm trying to keep myself from overdoing it...which I have a tendency to do. But if I get worried about anything while she's gone, I can always go to labor and delivery.
I've been looking at new born photos on FB and Pinterest lately as a reminder of that moment you get to see that little human ball of perfection. The reason for all the chaos. And, instantly, the chaos fades into a distant memory as you look at this perfect little being that you shared your body with the last 9 months. That moment is what is holding me together because that is the moment you absolutely know 100% that it was ALL SO WORTH IT!!!!
Well I suppose I should try to sleep a bit more. I'm not sure if that's a possibility but I'm going to try. Good night, blog friends!
Tuesday, August 4, 2015
28 Weeks
How Far Along? 28 weeks and 3 days!!!
Baby this Week? Malcolm is about 14.8 inches and 2.25 pounds! This week is a big milestone as it's the first week of the 3rd trimester! Baby has developed a bit more of a regular sleep pattern, sleeping about 20-30 minutes at a time. He's basically just working on fattening up!
Symptoms? Whew! Let's see. I had a tummy bug this last week (TMI warning) and I had the shits for 3 days straight. I even went into labor and delivery because my stomach was cramping sooo bad that I couldn't tell if I was contracting or not. Turns out, my uterus was irritable but most likely due to the tummy bug. So they gave me fluids and the most amaaaazing heartburn medicine and I was able to come back home! I'm still sort of recovering from that bug but I'm not super nauseated so that's a nice relief. As far as the other symptoms, I still have a little of that yeast infection in my armpits, I have a pregnancy rash on my belly still, I can feel the carpal tunnel really starting to flare up. My fingers feel really stiff when I make a fist. This really aucks because last time, my hands were numb for a few months after I gave birth and I couldn't work for a while. I have insane acid reflux. I'm peeing every 5 seconds. I can't sleep. My calves are cramping up. And everything stinks! Lol.
Cravings/Aversions? Not too many cravings. I have noticed that I want chocolate twizzlers this pregnancy. Last year, it was red vines. But I can't find chocolate twizzlers at the regular places I shop so I usually just go without. One weird one that I am craving is lime yogurt! I typically hate lime anything.
Goals this Week? Masons birthday party is this weekend so I'm using it as motivation to deep clean my upstairs and organize a bit for Malcolms arrival. The basement is still as total disaster and it's the one thing I reeeeaaaallly want done before baby comes. I got paint to paint an accent wall way back when I first found out I was pregs so I want to get that done before I am too big to function properly. Lol
Mason this Week? A big development with Mason is he's walking a little bit assisted by his little walking toys. Which, reminds me, I need to finish childproofing some cupboards in our kitchen.
Every now and then, I realize that soon, Malcolm is going to be on the outside!!!! As weird as it sounds, it's easy to forget that fact. I think that's maybe because it feels like pregnancy lasts forever. But as I was saying, we have 11 weeks at the most...and that's if we make it to 39 weeks. Reality is starting to hit. This is really happening and soon! We'll have 2 little boys. And we will be done with this chapter of our lives and we can move on to the chapter we've worked soooo hard for. It's going to feel like such a weight being lifted. It sounds like tubal litigation is covered by insurance so it's happening! My tubes will be tied in a couple months. Done and done!!!!!! Never EVER thought I would be even considering this. But the decision feels right. I'm at peace with it. Onward and upward!
Up since 3:30am
I've been up since 3:30 am. with heartburn. And Malcolm is simultaneously kicking my ribs while also punching my pelvic bone. And I'm reminding myself that I have 11 weeks left AT THE MOST. And then I feel a rush of panic because I've hardly had time to prepare. Then I remember that I don't have much to do to prepare since, ya know, we just had a baby. Lol
Lots of crazy stuff going on in my brain right now.
We have an appointment today. Getting the ol' cervix checked and I have about a million things to talk to Dr. Miser about. I need to ask her about tubal litigation, the reaction I'm having to the progesterone oil injections, we need to follow up on our L&D visit, Im out of nausea patches...I feel like there's more but I'm sure I won't remember until after our appointment.
I'll try to get my 28 week update up today. I've been kind of a slacker with my updates. I got sick for real last week and I'm just now starting to feel back to "normal. " And by normal, I mean only kind of nauseous. So I'll maybe do the update later today.
Lots of crazy stuff going on in my brain right now.
We have an appointment today. Getting the ol' cervix checked and I have about a million things to talk to Dr. Miser about. I need to ask her about tubal litigation, the reaction I'm having to the progesterone oil injections, we need to follow up on our L&D visit, Im out of nausea patches...I feel like there's more but I'm sure I won't remember until after our appointment.
I'll try to get my 28 week update up today. I've been kind of a slacker with my updates. I got sick for real last week and I'm just now starting to feel back to "normal. " And by normal, I mean only kind of nauseous. So I'll maybe do the update later today.
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