Smiles!!!!

Finally got some smiles on camera!!!!

Tour de Cure 2014!

Yesterday was the Tour de Cure!  This is the 5th year I've done it!!! I had signed up for the 5k while I was still preggers, and even before I went into preterm labor!  I had really hoped to take Mason but I just couldn't justify it since he had a little stuffy nose.  But that's OK. He got to have a day bonding with dad and I got to go hang out with my mom!  So here's a little pic from my first event post baby!!!!!  Woot Woot!!!

That being said, I missed the shit out of my boy!!!!!  It's tough being away for that long. I assume it gets better and easier...but it's still pretty early for me.  I want to get back to painting and tattooing but I can't even fathom being away so much!  When I got home, I stole Mason for the the rest of the night and snuggled the little man!!!

Mason is starting to be more expressive now!  It's fun to watch him when he gets like this.  He's also slowly starting to make a few other sounds here and there that aren't cries or sounds of distress. I love it so much!  And he's getting so big!!! I can't wait to see how much he's grown at his next appointment.  Although, I think he starts some of his vaccinations next time.  I heard those appointments can be hard for everyone involved.  (P.s. please, no vaccination arguments or debates! You don't have to agree with our decision to vaccinate, just as I don't have to agree with yours not to. But please be respectful in keeping the negative comments to yourself!) That being said, here is little man just chillin'!  

Today, I ran 2 miles.  I started by trying to do a modified version of the 15 5's. That's when you do 15 pushups, 15 tuck ins, 15 dips, 15 floor kicks, and 15 pull ups.  Then your start over with 14, then 13...all the way down to 1. (If any of you try this workout, let me know!!!) I started doing a modified version of it, but my hands!!!!! I thought hard about how this carpal tunnel would affect work but I never considered how it would affect my workouts!  Eeesh!  So I didn't make it very far on that workout.  So I cried tears of massive frustration, then changed into my running stuff and went for a run!

I was super proud to have made it 2 miles but, damn! It hurts !y ego a little bit to be this out of shape!  Yes, I know I just had a baby and it's pretty good considering I'm just shy of 7 weeks out of a cesarean... But I'm still allowed to be frustrated.  Its not going to make me quit or anything.  It still just sucks. I'll get my strength back eventually.

Speaking of strength, this week, I'm reintroducing lifting.  I just did bi's and tri's!  Tomorrow, I'm taking a rest day.  Gotta remember those rest days!!!!  Had another comment from someone telling me to "ease back into it." I know already!  CRIPES!!!! I thought I would share my accomplishment of running 2 miles but apparently, I'm rushing into it.  FFS, unless you are my doctor or Aprill (who also happens to be a personal trainer and educated in these sorts of things), shut your pie hole.  If you have something positive and/or encouraging to say, then yes, let me have it.  I need that right now!

Phew!  That sure pisses me off!! Lol!  Perhaps I just need to keep my workout stuff here and off FB.  Not very many people follow my blog anymore so there's less of a chance of the annoying comments!

Well, that's all I got for now!  I'm gonna go snuggle my boy for a while!  Tomorrow is a chill day. Perhaps some vid games and some hangouts with my boys!!!!  Peace!!!!

Starting Over

Have I mentioned lately how much I adore being a mom.  I was born for this!!!!

In other news....

I went on another run today.  I ran 1.25 miles today! I also went to Zumba.  Tomorrow, I will focus more on resistance stuff.  Next week, I'm busting out the weights, though!  I miss lifting!!!  My checkup is tomorrow!!!  But at this point, it seems almost a formality!  I feel so good. I'm making sure I don't so anything the injure myself by easing back into things.

As amazing as it feels to get moving again, it tough "starting over." I don't care what anyone says, it is discouraging to think about what I was doing before and what I am doing now.  It's hard to look in the mirror and not like what I see anymore.  I know I will again someday and it won't discourage me from pushing forward...but I'd be lying if I said it isn't tough to be at place I'd hoped I wouldn't be again.

I still feel a little bitter about the rocky pregnancy but it's no use dwelling on it! I have a perfectly healthy boy.  I gladly sacrificed my body and health so I could bring Mason into the world safely.  But now it's time to repair the damage.

Thank you to those who have given me encouragement!!!!  It's nice to know I have that support.  Also, thanks to those who are trying to hinder my progress.  I just use it as fuel!  Haha!

Also....I love being a mom!  Just in case I haven't said that in a while...

First Run/Walk

I think today is the day I try a little running. I'm thinking a run/walk at the park. I'll probably go later tonight.  Right now, I have a sleepy boy taking a nap on me. We can't rush through snuggle time. =)

We got one of out pics from his photo shoot.  I don't even care that he's so cranky.  He is just so precious! James did such a fabulous job working with such a crabby baby. I can't wait to see the rest!!!

I have my 6 week appointment on Thursday.  So even though I've already started working out,  it will be nice to get the "official" go-ahead from the doc!  After my appointment, G and I are going to go on our anniversary date finally.  We are only a couple weeks late. It's gonna be hard leaving little man...even just for a few hours. 

Yesterday during my workout,  I was thinking about how hard everything was...but it was just as hard as my workouts were when I was more fit.  I'm just at a different level!  I think it's important to remember that.  My workout us just as hard as, say, Aprill's.  It used to be a huge pet peeve of mine when I was at the top of my fitness level to have others assume my workouts were now easy.  But the truth is, no matter what level you are at, your workout should busy your balls. We are a ll at different levels with different goals in mind.

Anyway. Wish me luck on my run/walk!  I got new running shoes for the occasion,  even!  Yay!

Mason's First Road Trip

Mason went on his first road trip yesterday. It was just a little day trip to Helena to get pictures taken but it was a nice first road trip! We also visited my family while we were there!  It was a fabulous little trip.

Mason is just like his daddy! He was cranky almost the whole time. Most of his pictures were mad ones but he got a few where he wasn't mad.  Honestly, though, I don't even care if he is mad in his pics.  He is super cute anyway.

Today, we went on our first walk.  It was a little one but a good learning experience!  We went to the farmers market then to visit grandma Kandy at her shop.  Mason is pretty good...granted, lloyal held him a good chunk of the time and Aprill help him another chunk but it was nice to get out.

After I got home today, I ate, pumped then I conked out for a few hours!  I had missed my afternoon nap the last 2 days so it was catching up to me.  I am considering a shower as well but I need to go work out first.  My muscle soreness has finally chilled a bit.  I can't imagine how it's going to be when I do my first real workout! Lol!

I also want everyone to know that I picked up a folded jogging stroller right up over my head and into the back of Garrett's truck with n problems.  So all you people thinking I am doing too much or keep telling me not to overdo it can suck a big one!  Like the said before, I am pretty in tune with my body. I know what a good pain is and a bad one.

My 6 week appointment is this next week on Thursday.  I'm curious about what happens when I get pregs again.  I may ask her about it...NOT that I'm even remotely ready for the next one.  Even the thought...ughhhh!!!!  But I am just wondering how the damage to my cervix will affect any future pregnancies.

 The Tour de Cure is a week from today!!!  I made my goal.  But truthfully, it may be the last year.  Well, I will probably do it one more year so that I can do it again with Aprill. We need to do our events. We'll need to do that one, the dirty dash, the Spartan, the Montana Mucker, Color Run, maybe a zombie run, I'd like to do a half just for shits and giggles...and who knows what else. That is one reason I can't get pregs right away again.  I need to get myself back in shape.  And I missed out on all those events this year (for a good reason, but still!).

Welp!  I better go get my workout on before I talk myself out of it!

5 Weeks Post Partum

Real quick, just wanted to say I have 1 week until I hit my 6 weeks!  I'm super excited to get to work out with my bestie again. I know I we won't get to work out together as before she's going to school and I am a new mom! But still, we get to work out!  I took a break today because I'm sore!!! But it will be back to my mini workouts tomorrow!

Mason is 5 weeks today.  He's starting to outgrow his onesies and grow into new ones!  Mostly length-wise. He's still filling out but he's definitely getting chunkier!  Have I mentioned how much I adore this little boy!!!!!!  Because I really do!  

1st Sweat Post Partum

I have been working on my core little by little.  Yesterday was the first time I did any sort of "workout" where I actually sweat. I'm still not pushing it super hard because I haven't had my 6 week checkup yet..though it is coming up.

One thing I'm getting sick of is people telling me that it won't happen overnight. Or to just let my body heal first.  Or to just enjoy that baby before worrying about working out.

First of all...I know it is going to take a while to get back to where I was? Dude! I know.  This isn't my first rodeo. I've done this before and it took a few years to get to where I was.  Second, I know my body better than anyone else. I already know it's still healing.  I already know I have a long ways to go. I don't need reminders all the damn time.

I know people mean well, but at least put a positive spin on it.  Like those saying "I don't think it will take as long as you think..." That is uplifting.

Anyway...enough of the vent.  I just had to get that off my chest because it was starting to feel like people WANT to hold me back.
It feels good to move my body again...even just a little bit. Here is what I did yesterday.  I even had to work my way up to this...and it was tough for me.

And here are some of my starting point pics.  They aren't terrible, but they aren't exactly pretty either.  But they are part of my journey back to being strong so here they are!